I was just thinking about this, how my blog never reallyhad a name or title.  “sixsteps” is the name of my site, and the whole “i am not” knickname is something i’ve picked up recently after God revealing to me His “I AM” identity.

When I created the main graphic for this site, it was kind of not exactly intended to have “When you and I embrace surrender” as the tiltle, but it was just in one of the Passion Toronto pics that i saw that and thought back upon that song.

You and I are made to worship
You are I are called to love
You and I are forgiven and free.
When you and I embrace surrender,
When you and I choose to believe,
You and I will see who we were meant to be.

I think it’s actually very relevant for these times and this new year.  something to learn i definitely think–the whole surrender idea.  for the most part, last year was a lot about dying to self power and self trying, and really embracing the fullness of not just the Holy Spirit within me, but especially the living Christ Jesus within.  and this notion of “stop trying, and start dying”, i dont think either of us has fully lived out yet in everything we do.

and so, may it be a coincidence that this moniker landed on me…but i think it’s a gift from heaven actually, a very appropriate title to this new blog and new season in life.

anywayz, i should really get started on packing LOL!  Passion06 here i come!

I don’t think I would ever actively by my own choosing choose to go to an arcade.. It’s just not my idea of fun, and it’s quite frankly a waste of money, me not being one with such money to waste.  So if you ever find me in one, well, it’s likely not by my own choice;)  Jitz, or foose ball or wutever it’s called, car racing games, shooting games, I just kinda shrug shrug at this stuff, not too much excitement for me.  Maybe some Virtual Indy, air hockey table, pool, batting cages, just not them typical Asian games.

Maybe i’m just boring, or just not that kinda guy.  I’ve never been into board games, or puzzles all that much; and this “Mafia” game that my church friends play often…it’s alright. maybe i just dont find much point in aimless killing off of ppl, as the game role plays.  DDR dance dance revolution…lol :S

Which brings us to clubbing, and dancing. Quite the spectacle on the later evening of the Winter Crystal Ball… All very fun, reminds me of the old high school and gr.7/8 days…when it just used to be fun.  and now, sure definitely fun to a certain extent, all smiles for awhile.. but in the end, the aftertaste of darkness is what haunts me, the things that can happen on the dance floor and what it can lead to is what disgusts me.  pictures of people ‘grindng’ each other, and all the notions of sex drugs ceaseless drinking and sex.  as tempting as it may be, it’s what i avoid, and would not suggest for any of you reading this.  i mean, sure we all go thru that stage in life where we’re trying to find ourselves, but just dont go so far into this period of exploration that you end up losing yourself.

I am no saint, i maybe shoulda said right off the bat.  i don’t claim to be, but apparently, that’s what i am according to Christ–because of Him.  I drink alcohol on many occaisions, and i used to even drink a lot more regularly than i do nowadays. i guess you can say i’ve gotten drunk one time or two, spent a half the night beside the toilet and the other half lying in the empty bath tub. mistakes in life that i’ve learned from, that i hope and intend on never happening again.

What i enjoy is quality time with friends and family.  i enjoy movies, going out or staying in, spending time talking n sharing, building each other up.. eating =D  travelling–i would definitely do a lot of that once the money is there for it–but for now, on a much smaller scale…simply enjoying God’s creation.  i could really enjoy snowboarding if only i could do it more with ppl i know well…i cross-country skiied a good bit when i was younger, and never really downhill skiied.

Quality time spent walking along the waterfront (tho i cant scared & technically kinda scared of the water), on the beach.. star-gazing (H) yeah! basically activities where i can gaze in amazement at God’s wonders i would luv!

singing..i just luv singing, belting tunes out…significant other -type ballads, or God-ballads.. i would enjoy going to concerts if i had the $$ or the person to go with; and since i like drinking/coffee then i would think those coffee house type places where you can just sit n watch live music over alcohol or coffee would entice me :P   and of course, worshipping God through song. pure joy and satisfying to my soul. maybe it’s here that i find most fun and comforting and relaxing.

Had to get that off my chest. you wont ever find me choosing to go out to an arcade or dance club, but maybe a bar lol.  hmmm maybe ball room dancing, that’d be kool, tho a bit cheesy?!?  hahaha shall we dance indeed..

Oh, can’t forget bowling..i could definitely do a bit of that. speaking of which, Friday night my fellowship is going to Club300 to just bowl. lack of program planning, and here we go for bowling:P

Tomorrow night, I will be joining 18,000 other students in seeking God’s face and amplifying His greatness in Nashville.  I’m pumped, soo very excited, and in need of a bit more rest to get rid of this cold i’ve had since like Tuesday.  I’ve been imagining what that sounds like, looks like, feels like…to be in one big room with people from “every nation, tribe and tongue” to come together, joining as one to bring glory to God. No matter how loud the music from the stage is gonna be, our unified voices will be louder!  I wonder how deafening it’s gonna be =D I can just picture it, standing in awe of the grace of God that will have brought us together; humbled that it’s not just one or two of us worshipping God in song, not just 18,000 of us, but to think that we are only a spec in the grand scheme of things…to consider ALL the people around the world, along with the countless angels and heavenly hosts that will be worshipping with us!  WOW!!

I was listening to Beth Moore’s message she preached last year…and i’m just so amazed at the powerful voice of God that comes out of her mouth as she preached.. i’m not sure about this whole women and preaching/pastoring thing, but she’s got one heck of a gift–she just brings it straight to ya, loud and clear, no holding back at raising her voice to call upon the Spirit to saturate our lives.  her message was on passion, being as much a thing of the MIND as the heart…to guard our minds, as much as we guard our hearts.  just as Christ called us to love Him with all of our heart, soul, mind and strength, we must not neglect protecting our minds from the Evil one.  Our minds is what our faith is entrenched in–not just that we need to know what we believe–but also why.  Beth called the students to root our minds into the WORD of God, to hold up with the Shield of Faith in one hand AND the Sword of the Spirit in the other–so that our minds, and thus our hearts and our lives, would be strengthened for the glory of God.

I couldn’t agree with her more. And i’ve just been pondering about that, that we’ve SOOO often talked about guarding our hearts, that we’ve neglected to protect that which has opened up a gateway for our hearts to be shaken and broken–our minds.  Satan has tempted us and tricked us, told us lies that there is something better than Jesus…and we’ve one way or another, no matter how small, we’ve bought into that lie. and our hearts have been broken, our lives been torn apart because of this.  it’s because our minds aren’t strong enough to withstand…we gotta put up the Helmet of Salvation and protect our heads from thinking anything else than God satisfies.  ….and getting hurt in the process of “loving others” has tremendously impacted our “loving God” with all of our heart soul mind and strength, and all this due to our weak minds.

We need strength, Father.  Be the strength inside of us.  White flags all around… no more trying to do the right thing. Time to surrender to Your power within and stop doing the wrong things..stop sinning against You.  Thank you for saving me, for saving us.. That when we were dead in our transgressions, you rescued us..and by Your grace we are healed, through faith we are righteous.  Be the strength in our weakness, be the treasure that we seek, be all in our all.

Amen.

Well well, 2006 is here!

Mixed feelings all around for me, just taking it easy these past few days before Passion06. What’s done is done, and in the past. After my successful 40day Lent from blogging / to hand-written journaling, I’ve got lots to say and really don’t know where to start. I might post more than justce once daily too.. So I guess here goes.

My old blog was simply based on old technology and unfortunately could not be converted properly to WordPress, THUS I’ve started a brand new blog here! New beginnings not just in my website’s design and blog, but also Spiritually, emotionally, relationally. God is giving you and me a another chance here to glorify Him with our lives. May it be that fate/destiny/God will have it that we will see each other much less at first, but my hope and trust is in Thee alone & know He will BE the strength IN you to restore your weary soul. I know you and I both are struggling to trust each other, but believe you me when I say all I want is your friendship.

If you are reading this, than you are a dear friend, and maybe even a brother or sister in Christ. I care and agape/phileo love you as a brother/sister because Christ first loved me. He demands my life of love and sacrifice, and to die trying to turn an enemy into a friend. And thus that is my life goal, to make God look good–to glorify God in enjoying Him forever; to be happy about glorifying Him in all circumstances.

Everything has moved over to my one and only website here @ www.sixsteps.org My old domain will expire at end of January and will not be renewed, so if u wanna read my old blog entries, head over to http://old.sixsteps.org. Take a look around at the new site…feel free to register & comment–the commenting system is AJAX driven, so no refreshing of the page is needed! Searching entries is easier than ever–”live” search results display on the fly right under the searchbox! I’ve also started to use the Flickr.com photo service - see the frontpage. If you like to use RSS, see the bottom pages of my site for the feeds
Well, that’s about it for now. Gotta start getting things cleaned up and ready to fly off to Nashville on Monday. Happy New Years.