Today 

Earlier today, I had an interview with HP (Canada) at their Markham location, near Hwy404 & Hwy7.  The interview was for an Inbound Call Centre Representative job, and overall, I think it went very well.  I had some good conversations with the coordinator and team lead about the position, about their expectations and my own career goals.  The salary isn’t great, but it is Hewlett Packard, and at a fairly convenient location, so it looks like a good opportunity to learn and use my skills.  I’m looking forward to hearing back from them.

Tomorrow

Tomorrow, or rather, later today, I have an interview with the City of Brampton, early in the morning at 8am, for a GIS Technician 6-month contract job.  This one looks like a great opportunity to use my education and the skills I developed at Ryerson and from working at the City of Toronto.  The pay is good and the location is still commutable–so I’m crossing my fingers and praying hard for this one also!  As a 6month contract, it work out to be great for my schedule to start my M.Div at Southern in the Fall (Aug) term.

Later this afternoon, after the interview in Brampton, I have to head out east to a little town called Picton, for an interview with the County of Prince Edward for a GIS/Planning Technician job.  It’s another government job, so it should be good… the pay is decent, but the only downside is that it is in Picton–out in the middle of nowhere, about 2.5hrs east of Toronto.  From what I gather, it is a full-time permanent position, so I guess this is fairly enticing on the long-run… but I really cannot forsee myself moving to a hick town even semi-permanently.  Nevertheless, I want to work hard at this interview too, and pray that God will provide what is best for me in this time.

Applying for seminary

My application to Southern Seminary is almost complete.  Hopefully, my pastors will have the Recommendation for Admission and Church Affirmation forms filled out, and I can mail out everything by the end of the week.  I feel like I’m kind of also delaying my last edits of my Autobiographical Essay… I guess part of me is just kind of sad that the time has come to finally move on and away from Toronto.  Even though there are many things incompatible between me and my church, especially in terms of theology, and despite there being some not-completely resolved baggage here… God is telling me that I need to strive forward toward the goal He has set before me.  I have made a home out of this city since 1987, and it is bittersweet to be leaving–no matter when this may be.  Please pray for me as I complete all the parts of the application, and my heart in this time of slow transition.  I just got a receipt in the mail from Ryerson saying that my transcript was mailed to Southern on the 25th, so at least that’s one thing that’s already on its way down south.

New Blog Design

I’ve been working on a new blog design.  For the past few months, I’ve been re-thinking my purpose for this blog and how I write what I write.  I haven’t done so lately, but a lot of times in the past I’ve written long posts and even series of posts about theology and church-related issues in the form of fairly expositional articles.  I intend to continue to do that, but as have been suggested, I need to work on contextualizing my knowledge and the things I’ve read in laymens terms that regular-folk can understand!  I also know that I’ve never really had a purpose for my personal blog here at sixsteps.org, but I intend to have a solid purpose for my blog once the re-design is finished.  Part of the purpose will be to live out a humble orthodoxy in this blogsphere, and especially showing my readers and related parties that I say what I say because I love them.  So in this, please pray that I could show you that I love you, that my words could sound less arrogant and more humble; I share with you all that I have learned from His Word because I genuinely care for your well-being.

I don’t have a specific timeline for when the new layout will be out, but at this very moment, I’m hoping that it will be complete by Ash Wednesday / the beginning of Lent, whenever that is.  I don’t want to rush things and nor release the new layout parts at a time… but I think Ash Wednesday would be a good goal for the time being.

“What does this mean?”

I am currently thinking too much, and should be reading more instead, so I can rid myself of thinking too much.  This is a very good time for me to be reading deep into theological issues, like atonement and the emerging church, because I am just making things so much more complicated for myself.  I think that it’s just because of everything above that is putting so much pressure on me psychologically, spiritually and emotionally… that to even be reconsidering this and thinking about this stuff again is really putting the drama back into my head.  Just the other day, I was telling my friend that I was living a very drama free life… but now, only a few days later, I feel like there’s drama going on in my head even though there’s nothing going on in my life really. 

The words of Chantal Kreviazuk come to mind: what if it all means something?  I hate hypotheticals, so let’s just discard the hypothetical part of this question and go head first into tackling this: does this mean anything?  what does it mean?  Do I want it to mean something?