A photo from my 3rd year trip to Salzburg, Austria

Yesterday, I had the great pleasure of receiving a small gift in the mail from a friend in Maryland… Connie Chang.  She works for New Attitude Conference, a ministry of Josh Harris’ church, Covenant Life Church / Sovereign Grace Ministries.  She was kind of enough to send me a WorshipGod06 wristband, exacto knife?, prayer card, and a post card with some gracious words written on the back of it:

Anyways, before I post what I’ve been meaning to post for the past few days… I just want to leave a note here, about how/what I’ve been feeling.  It’s a complicated feeling, a good feeling, but a still a feeling that could very well fade away in an instant.  I could choose to let this go right now, at this very moment… but to think of what I’d be losing–I pause and realize that this will truly be a God-sized test of patience, the largest I’ve experienced in all my life.  A friend calls it being at a cross-road, but I just find myself walking my path, and my friend here walking hers… currently more or less side by side, though not hand in hand… sooner or later, when I leave for seminary, the distance will be much larger between us.  In a sense I’ve said what I really wanted to say, but the truth is, there’s more… a lot more… something big enough to encompass my entire future.

I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head
‘Cuz I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
‘Cuz I know you’re worth it…you’re worth it…yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I’d say I want to blow you… away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee…
Marry me today!
Guess I’m wishing my life away…
With these things I’ll never say

It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you, what’s on my mind?
If it ain’t comin’ out
We’re not goin’ anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care?
‘Cuz I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
‘Cuz I know you’re worth it…you’re worth it…yeah

What’s wrong, with my tongue
These words keep slippin’ away…
I stutter…I stumble
Like I’ve got nothin’ to sa-ay…
I’m feelin’ nervous
Tryin’ to be so perfect
‘Cuz I know you’re worth it…
You’re worth it…yeah