Slight momentary affliction

I came across this timely reminder from God, in 2 Corinthians…I knew this was coming, I just didn’t know it was gonna be like this.  It’s so hard to swallow, simply because this life is so hard to live and understand.  I have such patient ability to forgive, and yet the ability to forget is far from my ability and vocabulary.  I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it sometimes.. I don’t understand.  Why am I crying on my bed?  Why does your name resound in my head?  Why does this distance maim my life?  I am supposed to be a man, a leader, and yet I have to put up this face that shows the world that I am apparently invincible.  But know this, I am not a superhero, no matter how much I wanna be.  I don’t have super powers, I cannot dodge bullets but rather am more than willing to lay my life down for my friends.  I cannot save you from all harm and danger, but I can assure you that the One who can has already done so.  And even though most of the times these days you don’t seem to wanna see me or talk to me at all, I know God is speaking to you daily and I am sure He will relay to you my heart for our friendship.

So we do not lose heart. Though our outer nature is wasting away, our inner nature is being renewed day by day.  For this slight momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.  (2 Corinthians 4:16-18)