Since my last post on Saturday, I’ve been hiding from writting/posting…I’ve a million things to say, and ….this is me hiding from saying what I truly wanna say again.  I’ll split these thoughts up in multiple posts…

 

CCF Winter Retreat 2006 - memorable moments:

• Literally, waiting for God to speak, would not sleep until He spoke.   “How long, how long, how long O LORD” Psalm 13.  Ended up discussing theology and stuff with a bunch of people; I think my questions to God is still unanswered here.
• The last night when we had split guys/girls time of sharing & prayer:
  being vulnerable with all the guys in sharing about our sexual sin, and hamburgers.
• Sharing and praying with Jeff Chan: complete honesty in it all.
• Openly sharing with a younger sister in Christ why my heart still aches and breaks today; being vulnerable to a fairly new friend is something I haven’t done in a long time; fixing up her misunderstanding of my situation was definitely needed; dark eyes–very dark eyes, like literally black!
• Crying and pouring my heart out to God during evening worship.
• Wrestling with Jono; what motivated me–only I know why; lost but had lots of fun!
• Just about 0mins spent in heart-to-heart, face-to-face talk with the Square.  Thanx Almond, tho, for the brief but necessary chat.  we really should do it more often…if you have time.
• Not needing to “do” anything (serving) during a Retreat; the 1st time in the longest time I don’t have to worry about anything; such a relaxing time that allowed me to be honest, genuine, unhypocritical before Christ in the solemn manner that was required of me for this season of life.  sorry if I brushed anybody off due to my seriousness, my apologies–that’s just life doing it’s thing on me: being serious.

that’s about it for now.  if there’s more, i’ll be sure to edit this.