No attachment, new attachment

When you don’t have something, you wish the world you did and feel like crap because life seems so empty and meaningless without it; you wander through life lost, continuously searching to find that one other to share your life and its sense of completeness with…and maybe after a while of endless searching, you give up, wave the white flag and stop searching because you realize that genuine truth and beauty cannot be found in searching.  Rather, it finds you.

But once you have that something, your life is completely changed; this very life circumstance makes you happy; this reality seems like it was a real fairy tale come true; cloud number 9; like you were in heaven; and everything you see seems tremendously more colourful even though it really hasn’t changed; you cherish every moment of life so much more and pay special attention to the little details of life that you overlooked before; you find a touch of splendour and heaven in the strangest and oddest of places.

I wish my life would be the latter, I really do.  Living heaven on earth.  But unfortunately that is not the case; my life is the former.  and still, life goes on…the show must go on.  I live to die another day.  Die to self-trying and self-power and self-control.  Every part of my life I seem to have control over–school, work, what to eat or wear, but in this, I really do not…it is out of my hands, I cannot do anything about it, I do not have control over what happens.  And being without any control of my life freaks me out.  …Maybe this is God’s way of testing my true reformed/calvinistic beliefs, if I really do consider Him LORD over all.

Anywayz, here it is, my new attachment.  I splurged, because I can, and have nothing/nobody holding me back.  Found it on sale at Steve’s Music:
Behringer V-TONE BASS BDI21: Bass Amp Modeler/Direct Recording Preamp/DI Box

I can’t seem to find a 9v DC adaptor lying around, nor a 9v battery, so I’ve yet to plug it in and try it out…but dang, she looks gorgeous!

She needs a name–so please send in your suggestions! 
(FYI: my Bass guitar’s name is Joey, after Joey Yung)

See also this old post for reference on this topic.

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